An Opportunity wasted

Been a long while since i blogged... where have i been ? lol

This has been a long month.. Job hunting and hoping to find a suitable job for myself...
somehow, this has been getting difficult as the graduates from local universities also graduated in april. Competiting with these guys arent any easier. too many choices for employers to choose and they sure are picky.

Been to several interviews and this is what i conclused: "Are you 2nd upper and above?" omg... there's a large no. of positions for "these" ppl whereas normal degree have only limited vacancies. Yes, very Limited. Is there no other way round for normal degree holder like me? i dont know... realli hope something will work out for me.

I have been waiting reply from a particular company.. Yes, a company that i am realli interested in and i believe i can "grow" with that company...after 2 months of waiting...i got the interview this morning.. but somehow it screwed up... argh....what am i doing? The interviewer was expecting alot from me. "hey, what do you think of the future of IPS?", "have you done any configuring before?", "what's the latest vulnerabilites?", "do u visit any sites to update yourself on security events?", "things you learn in school are the basic and some are obsolete. where else do u keep yourself updated?" etc, etc.

What i am hoping is to get to chance to learn all these stuff during my job. I know i am not well-prepared in term of keeping myself updated with the current IT security events. haiii, i am disappointed myself.. but i must admit, that guy who interviewed me is a very clever chap. He ask intelligent questions to his candidates.

Well, what can i do now? cross my finger and better be well-prepared for the next interview.